Its rolling, but its lagging. I got called a lag-er last week and since then, I've noticed I am when there isn't a deadline. I know I've addressed this issue several times before, I procrastinate, too often. I know better but yet I still do it. My theory still remains I do this because I thrive off the pressure of having to scramble things together and perform at a high level. Athlete mentality, probably. Wise decision making, probably not. The problem is that I scramble. That may seem a little harsh in choice of words but for the most part its very true. Nevertheless, it results in missing minor details, things that had I been proactive and gotten it done earlier, I would have caught when I went back to it. My flaw. One of many. But none that conform me to the norm. I am hardly your normal person. I explain to people, I'm quite weird. Isn't everyone a little weird. Things they do, things they like, things that amuse them, things they hate. Things, things, and more things. Such a generic word, used too often and too common. Wait, did I just say the same thing twice? How's that for weird? Not that I basically said the same 'thing' twice, but that I am jumping around from topic to topic like I have Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. Yeah, I said it. A.D.H.D. Just not clinically diagnosed. I diagnosed myself. Cause I'm the doctor of me. haha. Just gets weirder doesn't it?
Well, I'm writing right now because I want to get the ball rolling, as in my mind. I'm suppose to be studying/reading/case briefing/legally writing. However, as you can see, I am currently not doing any of that. Rather I would choose to nap at this point because my eyes feel heavy. That of course would further delay this "studying" and thus procrastinating. Exactly the one thing I do not want to do. Yet I'm doing it by typing. At the very least, I'm winning small battles, I've written down what pages I need to read and assignments I need to do. I have a list!
Ah-ha! I figured it out, its because its so quiet here that I'm left with wandering thoughts and lack of motivation. I knew laziness would creep its ugly head out. I suppressed for quite some time, I'm thoroughly impressed with myself. I need assistance in sending it back into hibernation, I'm in need of someone to help fill the air in my house. Its eerily quiet at nights and especially during the day when my neighbors, complex-mates are all gone and its just the sunlight and wind/breeze blowing. Music is my passion, but it distracts me because I get so into it and I lose focus.
uh-oh, I think the ball found a hill, its going... until next time peeps.
I would normally apologize right here for making this entry odd and displaying my weird-ness and quirky nature, but I won't, I'm not apologizing, you read it cause you wanted to waste your time. ha.
Did you laugh cause I did!
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